every single day i just can't wait to get away.

been really long since i last posted an entry...
been really long since i last went blog-hopping...
been really long since i last watched TV...
been really long since i had my nails done...
been really long since i last conditioned my hair...
been really long since i slept decently...

in short, pagod na ako.

and how ridiculous is this?! it's been only a month! isn't that a bit too soon to start complaining??

the title of this entry i got from a friend's blog.

and it's true.

i can't wait to get away. every day. the clock ticks fast. but not fast enough.
i can't wait to empty my head. every day. thing is, they just won't go away.
i can't wait to close my eyes and leave this world behind. every day. but my eyes close only to focus on a vision of you, looking like you always do. you messed with my peace of mind.
and now i ask, when will peace come back to me?
peace...light...love...um...HUH??!?!

then the tears just started flowing. out of frustration. out of confusion. out of anticipated humiliation. out of fear of making a mistake. out of fear of being talked about. it's pretty much like walking in the dark with my senses numb.

but sacrifices have to be made. if I want to get somewhere, i gotta start learning the right attitude. but one day, i'll show you. i'll show you that i'm not stupid. that i can do it...i'll show you that i'm better than you. you're only older. kaya angas ka e. oh well...they say that we don't have to quit whenever we're faced with trials...after all, it's not the load that breaks us down, but how we carry it. o diba!?

ON A LIGHTER NOTE! (as you are somewhat an insignificant fly buzzing around my head, i see no point in brooding over YOUR thoughts)

even though i sacrificed some serious "alone" time, i'll never sacrifice time with my friends and family. they're the only ones keeping me sane these days! actually, i'm loads of kwentos overdue! been to tagaytay with my college barkada. went on a drinking binge at 6 in the evening with high school friends (HELLO?! 6pm drinking?! what were we thinking!?). sharpened my manual driving skills by driving rondel's car at 2 in the morning coz he's dead drunk (at twice pa to nangyari a!). been brought Mango Bravo by rondel coz he wanted to thank me for driving. played a block-rockin' show at racks, el pueblo (HELLO!?!? like RACKS!?! as in RACKS?!?). and lots more. haaaaaaaaaaaaay.

the point of all these?

though it feels as if my life's scattered in pieces on the floor, it's really not.

doink!

current mood: frazzled
current music: punk you!