like a child again.

there are sooo many times when i just feel like running back to the past so i could be a child again.

everything was so simple...
everything that we did was so pure...
so innocent...
all that we did was out of pure enjoyment of life.

as we grew older, our thinking got more complicated, hence making us less contented and more problematic. hassle noh?! i keep asking, why can't things stay as simple as they were when i was a kid? and i answer myself: things do stay as simple as they were. it's us who become more complicated. it's actually US who make life difficult for...US. come to think of it...who chooses to worry about this? who chooses to give a damn about that? who chooses to brood over something insignificant, acting as if it'll be the end of the world if we don't get our way? who chooses to pack her/his mind to bursting with thoughts and worries?

ME. You. Us. All of us.

it's just so sad that it had to turn out that way. i know that if we all had our way, we'd choose to just be kids again. but most of the time, we make the wrong choices, realizing our mistake only when it's too late...when things become too complicated for a child to handle. what fun! =D

i actually share the same thoughts with a friend, who claims he still sees himself as a child. and wala syang paki kung ano gusto isipin ng tao. it's actually funny how people's minds work. he says before pag sinabi niya na gusto niya maging bata ulit, parang tinatawanan siya. pero ngayon, everyone wants to be a child again. nyahaha! now who's weird?!

anyways. i have a 6-year-old inside of me. that kid is so frivolous...and so excited about life. sobrang mababaw lang ang kaligayahan. she lights up whenever i walk down the art section of a bookstore or whenever i play with the dog. but sometimes, little mimi cries when michelle's world goes awry. and when this happens, i try to keep my cool for that kid who's about to lose hers. it's extremely hard but someone's got to do it. i wrote a song for her...
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carousel.

close your eyes little one
and let your thoughts fly.
of playground fights
and scary nights.

brush your fears away,
let the shimmering lights
take you away
to your dream land.

hush little one...

chorus:
aboard the merry-go-around,
and leave your world behind.
float away with the notes,
just let yourself be.
i wish your life could again be
as simple as A-B-C,
counting 1-2-3...

take shelter where you cling,
hide in his shadow
but when it becomes too fast,
too unbearable

hush little one.
let me take you home.
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sometimes, it's really like that. kung san yung takbuhan mo pag sawa ka na sa mundo, yun pa yung nagpapalala sa problema mo. hirap talaga maging tao noh?! :p

but on a positive note, realizing our mistakes and learning from them means growing up and being stronger. if only growing up wasn't so difficult...haaaay...

argh! eto na naman ako e!