on happiness.

my prayer for the past months has been the same. i've been asking God to teach me how to be happy. as in yung simple kind of hapiness lang. nothing intricate, nothing extravagant. just plain and simple happy. on and on it went..i was waiting for some kind of answer. but i wasn't really sure where to look.

could it be getting that dream job?
could it be finding my true love? (man...how cheesy can you get?!)
could it be being able to eat a whole pizza without gaining a pound?
could it be reaching my desired weight?
could it be being allowed to splurge all my money on shoes?
could it be getting to play an almost perfect show?

hindi e. masyado mababaw tong mga to. although i'd be happy, too, if i get to do any of these! :p but what i'm looking for is something long-term not something that'll give me that spontaneous high na di pa nga sure how long maglalast.

and so i continue to wait and listen for an answer. and then this morning, when i woke up, i looked at my phone and i had 4 messages waiting to be read. one of the messages was a quote sent to me by a friend named JC. i dunno...but the message sort of hit me in a way that i never imagined it would. i said to myself, "this is it. this is the answer." i found it uncanny lang that this message came from JC. i call Jesus JC kasi in my prayers to make everything more personal and casual.

"happiness is probably glandular or a matter or temperament. if you are not happy, you better stop worrying about it, and see what treasures you can pluck from your own brand of unhappiness."

of course, it could be something na wala lang...coincidence lang. but doesn't it make a lot of sense? i mean even if unhappy ako, it's still my choice to be happy or not. it's all a matter of seeing the bright side of everything and obeying what He wants us to do. thing is, sometimes, what He wants us to do makes us really, really unhappy kasi ayaw natin gawin. but this message says it all.

bow.